The most complicated, most demanding, most challenging, most rewarding job, in the world, is being a momma. I always would say when my girls were little, “I wish I had a pill to take, so when my kids were upset, I could listen but then forget.” Wouldn’t that be great? Now that they are grown, they bring more mature and more challenging situations and circumstances. We find ourselves with hard questions, answers that are not easy to understand, and adversities beyond our control.
After a long week, I decided to go for a walk. All the dogs followed in step as their dust blew in my face. Great for my allergies. My AirPods were secure, and I pressed play. The song THERE WAS JESUS began to play. Zack Williams sang the lyrics, and Dolly was in the background singing There Was Jesus. As I listened, tears began to flow, so uncharacteristic of the old me. Yes, the me before circumstances have brought me to my knees.
I understood the words as they pressed into my ears. Even when I didn’t know it or when I couldn’t see it, there was Jesus.
On the mountain, in the valleys (There was Jesus)
In the shadows of the alleys (There was Jesus)
In the fire, in the flood (There was Jesus)
Always is and always was
No, I never walk alone (Never walk alone)
You are always there
In the waiting, in the searching
In the healing and the hurting
Like a blessing buried in the broken pieces
Every minute (Every minute), every moment (Every moment)
Where I’ve been and where I’m going
Even when I didn’t know it or couldn’t see it
There was Jesus
I thank God every day there was Jesus.
No, I never walk alone; he is in every part of “I don’t understand?” He is there in the hurt. He is there when we think we are drowning. He is there when we feel we can’t take another step. He is there when situations are just so difficult. He is there listening as we hear words we don’t want to hear on the phone. He is there when we can’t fix it or change anything. He is there in every moment.
I am reminded of conversations that Lauren and I have had; He is crying with us. He hurts for us. He loves us. He is with us.
What I always have to remember when I don’t understand- THERE WAS JESUS! He is in the middle of the broken pieces.
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